Hi Ambra-
Thanks for your kind words regarding my post--I am pleased you found
it interesting and hopefully, useful.

My hunch is you find meditation difficult to establish and maintain
(like most of us!) simply because your "ego self/lower self" (whatever
we choose to call it) has a hard time settling down and being quiet.
But it sure sounds like you are on the right track--I always tell
people to "do what works for them".

As far as your connecting prayer with meditation, that is only
natural. Somewhere Cayce said that meditation is simply prayer from
the inner self (or words to that affect).

Keep the faith--keep at it! The world needs more people like you!

All the best,
Keith