((((((((((((((((( DreamWalker Update: Quitting Cannabis )))))))))))))))))

February 25, 2009


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I've been sleeping really well lately, but my dreams have been getting
REALLY eventfull, as in next morning I can pretty much remember and
picture most of the scenes from my dream. This hasn't bothered me
untill last night/this morning.

I dreamt the world was ending, I didnt know how but it was sort of like
'the gossip', but everyone was convinced this was the last day of the
world. I walked into a shop and grabbed a crate of beer, my mate turned
to me and said "Don't bother paying it's the last day." I also
remember looking back at the shop-keeper (who I recognised from my
local) and him looking rather dissapointed/ashamed in me. I carried on
down the street where it seemed pretty chaotic, there was a schoolbus
dropping off kids who were all talking about it, and walking towards me
was a guy who I am currently trying to get hold of because he owes me
some money. (I am currently under a lot of stress with money). I said
wassup and we walked back to my house and walked inside to see my mums
boyfriend who is a recovered drug-user, completely off his face and
hysterical about the world ending, he was doing really crazy stuff and
saying really weird things (he was like bouncing around like a ball on
his back, actually quite disturbing when i remember it). Me and my
mates were concerned but carried on upto my room - this is where it got
bad.

I've had this one a few times but in a different scenario each time,
its like a zombie plague, (kind of 28 days later) where if your touched
by the infected you catch the plague, all my friends had suddenly got
the plague out of nowhere, extremely disturbing graphic faces, I ran
downstairs where I was safe untill I opened the door, there were 3 cats
who all had the plague and I knew I was gonna catch the plague from
them so I was desperately trying to fend them off, for I knew if I
could just get past them I'd be okay, but I couldn't. I was completely
hopeless and can still feel how I felt then (some 12 hours later).

I don't remember much after this but it was really quite horrific.

It's made me really depressed today, I'm pretty sure its down to my
recent cannabis use (4-5 years) which I have given up for roughly 2
weeks now, I never dreamt at all when I was using, or at least I could
never remember them. I'm 20 years old, I have a lovely girlfriend and I
think of myself as a fairly strong minded person, but this has been
worrying me and affecting my general well-being. Will I continue to
have surreal dreams now I have stopped using, if so will it continue to
change my mood through-out the next day, as this is affecting my
relationship with my GF.

Any help would be appreciated as it's making the whole 'going clean'
thing real hard for me and like I've said affecting my personal life.

Thank you,
Josh

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