Wow!!! What an AMAZING experience... As my day started "off" and just keep
tipping more
& more chaos, I thought how perfect it was that I had an appointment with this
"Lifestream"
Which issues that day, so dramatic, I'd have literally been upset for months and
FOR SURE
needed a counselor!!! What a test this would be. I show up for the
appointment, and by
the look on the host face, they knew I was seriously stressed! And to really
put that
Lifestream for the test, I even TRIED to feel my pain, and not just from that
day, from
many other issues that had been disturbing me for a while. As I've lost family
members
and SO MUCH pain I could cry or be angry SO EASILY before (even through
meditation,
counseling, on and on I try to release, forgive, whatever I could do, I WAS
trying to do it,
but couldn't seem to let these horrible experiences go!!!) Just before finding
the lifestream
(I LOVE SCIENCE TOO!) I had lay in bed thinking there MUST be some kind of
machine that
could help ONE balance. I am not saying practicing all the disciplines doesn't
help,
meditation, yoga/or and of those arts, eating right, working out, affirmations,
seminars,
counseling, BUT I and SO many I know couldn't seem to get to that level that
healed
enough that ONE could TRULY, HONESTLY be free of the pain. We could ignore it.
We
could pretend, pretend we forgave "them" or ourselves, or that we weren't sad or
hurt. I
never lied about it to myself, no mind games here, but I did do a LOT of running
from the
pain. Wishing I wasn't so sensitive. That I could turn off and be like
everyone else, kinda
anyway... BUT THEN, THEN THE LIFESTREAM came into my life, all by chance, there
it was.
I had goose bumps, my stomach whirled as I seen it, and was told about it. So I
HAD to
put it to the REAL test... being SO SENSITIVE (and not like psychic, like in
DEEP PAIN) I
TRIED SO MUCH TO FEEL IT IN THE ROOM THAT DAY, SITTING WITH MY NEW BEST
FRIEND(that'd be the lifestream:) LOL,.. anyway NOTHING! JUST PURE FEELING.
Once I
realized this is working, I began to pray, focusing on letting go of the old and
accept the
new "In the name of the HOLY SPIRIT, I co-create, with pure intent, to release
all that does
not serve GOD'S highest good and accept ALL that does!" ETC on the awesome
affirmations I've made up. LOVE LOVE LOVE, forgiveness, etc. It was amazing, I
walked
out of that room feeling more balanced than EVER IN MY LIFE. Coming from a
drugs and
alcohol home, suicideS, mental illness, health issues, everything, for the first
time I felt
peace. Don't get me wrong, I've had so really intense, amazing meditations and
different
wonderful experiences,.. but the difference was I still always went back to
those "bad"
feelings, as though everything I'd done was almost drug like, as people can get
addicted
to positive thinking seminars or church or yoga, whatever... This lifestream
experience
was different. It's not a CRUTCH.. it's a REAL CHANGE IN ME.. and I'm SO
THANKFUL...

peace b with u:)xo